OFTTIMES WHERE
How many times have I wondered where you are?
Where exactly did you go?
Last night as I drifted off, I found myself sitting in our old house, waiting. You breezed in, young again, shining.
In awe I said 'you are so beautiful'.
You smile, as only you could, and I see you with as much of me as possible, knowing that you will soon be off again.
When I woke, I kept as still as can be, unblinking, like you were on that last day.
If I pretend to be you, will I feel what you were feeling?
Will I know what you were thinking?
Will I feel the comfort of your warm cheek against mine for the last time?
If I keep really still, will I know?
All curled up you were.
So quietly leaving us you were.
How many times have I lied there, so still, wondering?
Is this letting go?
How many times have I wondered where you are?
Where exactly did you go?
Last night as I drifted off, I found myself sitting in our old house, waiting. You breezed in, young again, shining.
In awe I said 'you are so beautiful'.
You smile, as only you could, and I see you with as much of me as possible, knowing that you will soon be off again.
When I woke, I kept as still as can be, unblinking, like you were on that last day.
If I pretend to be you, will I feel what you were feeling?
Will I know what you were thinking?
Will I feel the comfort of your warm cheek against mine for the last time?
If I keep really still, will I know?
All curled up you were.
So quietly leaving us you were.
How many times have I lied there, so still, wondering?
Is this letting go?
posted by Pod at 10:03 AM
29 Comments:
I like the mysterious photo and were you dreaming about a beloved pet?
I dreamt a few nights ago about a little hamlet (that no longer exists) but in my dream it was there, perfection. (and yet I never saw it that way in real life.) and I walked thru it and saw the cottages and buildings and people in summertime technicolor-- it made me so happy.
that is so lovely i burst out into woeful cries .... you so clever and good and lovely xxxxx
big sis x
oh pod.
do we have to let go?
xx
oh wonderful words
I love it when you write. You must be thinking of your mum as I am of mine at this time of year. On Sunday it will have been one whole year.
Simply beautiful, pod.
xxxooo
Wow. Beautiful.
I can't pretend to know what it's like. But I think Lettuce is right in asking her question.
Dennis dreams too.
Oh this is so beautiful but sad!Heart-achingly beautiful.
That is one of the most beautifully evocative photos-and-text combos I've seen. It left me missing, well, everything, and yet somehow still feeling an assurance that love continues and abides.
I, too, believe you were writing about your mom and it brings me to tears. You must love her dearly, Poddy. I feel your words to my soul.
Wow - beautiful photograph and really beautiful text!! Dying to know who you're writing about. At first I thought a lover but when I read it again I thought your mum. Who ever it is I hope they can read it. xxxx
people long gone do breeze in, young again. No matter how many years pass, they will always be around, somehow.
Pod, this is so beautiful
love you xx
oh good just checking... i sorted myself out for blog xx
Oh yes it's a wonderful letting go, a reverent letting go, so full of love and wonder and mystery.
What is remembered, lives.
Love to you,
this is absolutely gorgeous ... emotionally and photographically.
I read and I read again. And I would want to be able to tell you so many things and I am not able to do in English.
So beautiful.
I have a house like that, I visit sometimes, but most times these days it is empty.
wonderful image.
this post was very inspiring.
The pic's a fascinating blur, your words echo love + death, and this lonely heart salutes you from the U.S.A.
Loved ones never really go away.
I'd be interested to see what you could do with mirrors and your camera.
never let go.
just store it away for safe keeping :)
never let go.
just store it away for safe keeping :)
KINGPIN - i ove the sound of your perfect hamlet. i was dreaming of little moth, not a pet as such.....
SIS - she is all around us x x
LETTY - no we don't at all, but in some ways i think we do have to let them go, if that makes sense. different perhaps to letting go?
LYNNE - the time goes so fast hey? i still can't believe she's not here. boo hoo x
STE - thank you ;0)
DENNIS - how's the psychotherapy going? maybe you could work thru some dreams during one of the sessions
PAM - don't be too sad, there came much happiness before....
LORI - that's exactly it. love never dies, as i think, belinda carlisle agrees....
FAYE - trueness fayeness ;0)
ALB - yes tis her. she knows. hope you are well!
LIBERATOR - she is never far away
REYA - love to you my dear!
RAINDOG - thanks my friend ;0)
ALICE - what a lovely thing to say. maybe we will just have to believe that we already know what we would talk about?
FIFI - perhaps the house is all you need?
HUGH - thank you squire!
WAT - ah, don't be lonely. we is here!
CHED - i know...just into another room
BOB - mirrors......?
INC - i won't. nice to see you!
So lovely Poddy, as ever x
The time between waking up and waking up for real is the best...or the worst.
Oh Pod!
You are lovely...
x
My goodness; my mother was back, just the other night. I woke up, confused. A powerful post indeed.
¿GHOSTS?...
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