Saturday, October 25, 2008

STEALTH



I have been feeling a little like this of late. A bit stuck. Perhaps a little stuffed (no comments please Gary). Or maybe full is a better word. Frustrated. I have been working rather hard and consequently have had little time to even think about being creative, let alone picking up the camera and making some pictures. Recently, I have felt that work is defining me. I go through phases like this, and know that balance will return once I have realised that it has been lost.

I was looking down at my hands today and thinking about a change of career. I think a penny dropped and a few other things then fell in to place. You know when you've been choosing not to observe yourself for a while, and then all of a sudden you see it all quite clearly. I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror looking a little too much like the stuffed weasel that we see here. A little bit stuck and sneery. Only a little, but we don't want that do we?

So, some thinking to do.

And I also keep putting off getting a Canon 5D.

And I also want to read forever.

And
And
And

22 Comments:

Blogger herhimnbryn said...

'Deep in the centre of your being,
You know what you want.' lao tzu

And I recommend finding an afternoon or three and picking up your book and.................

9:20 PM  
Blogger Reya Mellicker said...

Honestly, Pod, you and I have shared soul "bits" - that's my way of saying I know EXACTLY what you mean. Self expression is part of what makes us human. When we work too hard, even in the noble arts (your professional art is DEFINITELY noble), then self expression stops and everything gets gummed up inside.

When that happens to me, I like to eat something crunchy, bite down HARD, or take the fastest walk or bike ride I can manage. Or sing at the top of my lungs until I'm hoarse.

Anything to get the energy moving.

Last week was difficult for so many of us all around the world. If we all sing loudly enough, maybe this week will be different.

Fabulous photo, of course. Love to you!

11:18 PM  
Blogger lettuce said...

that weasel does look terribly cross and snarly
and sneery

i hope your weekend will help you unsnarl a little


take some days off work
walk, run, cycle, take pictures
think
read

things will come clear for you

and your special healing hands
and heart

1:21 AM  
Blogger Gary said...

You give me a set-up like that and then forbid me to make comment? LOL.

That bit about catching a glimpse of oneself in a mirror tends to always cause a jolt, especially when the inner does not match the outer. Good for you for taking notice and being introspective. Without those moments of deep(er) questioning and reflection we would just go on and on without purpose. So, go buy your camera and read and, and, and...

3:40 AM  
Blogger ArtSparker said...

Do you mean fed up?

Me, I've been feeling overwhelmed. Conversation helps.

8:11 AM  
Blogger Alina Chau said...

THis is AWESOME!

3:23 PM  
Blogger chrome3d said...

There is so many things to do when you stop thinking about them.

3:49 PM  
Blogger Lynne said...

Snarky, pod

downright snarky

I recommend a walk in the woods with your new (go out and purchase that new Canon!) camera.

Always sets my mind back into place again. To focus on something else through the camera lens.

Thanks for the beautiful words on my blog.

xx

11:16 PM  
Blogger Technodoll said...

Hah - this ties to the quote I just posted on my Diaries blog...

"People often say that this or that person has not yet found himself. But the self is not something one finds, it is something one creates." ~Thomas Szasz, "Personal Conduct," The Second Sin, 1973

So there you go. You're allowed all the "ands" you wish :-)

12:42 PM  
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6:01 AM  
Blogger DeLi said...

i truly can say say that i feel this way as i change my lanes i felt the push of comparison to what i left behind and to what i envisioned i shoudl have been now..and, and and......:(

11:57 AM  
Blogger raindog said...

that's a mighty familiar feeling. and i thought it was just me. go figure.

good luck finding that balance ... and soon. and getting your hands on the 5d. thats a hunk-a-hunk o camera. gotta love a canon though!

2:39 PM  
Blogger Chick said...

Ah...matching the insides to the jarring outsides...that takes work sometimes...I know I need to do it too...I think a brand new camera would definitely help (good luck to us both).

11:02 PM  
Blogger WAT said...

I make work creative, or else it becomes a stagnant nightmare for me. I really should pursue another career, but am lazy and a horrible procrastinator. Shame on me!

I was WOLF CREEK, this most terrifying disturbing movie about the Australian outback. Very disturbing.

4:13 AM  
Blogger WAT said...

I meant to say "I SAW" Wolf Creek.

Ha.

4:13 AM  
Blogger get zapped said...

I'm right with you on this one Pod. STUCK in all caps. It's good you are taking a look inward. Curious to see what you discover.

Sneer at least a little :/

7:44 AM  
Blogger Robert said...

Well, nothing was lost without ever being found. Be receptive [ooh ahh!] and things will come your way. woohoo!

2:33 PM  
Blogger Steve said...

I have those change-of-career feelings too. (Particularly since my chosen field is dying.) If you figure out how to go about it, let me know! But don't do anything rash, now. :)

3:47 AM  
Blogger Laurie Keller said...

Get the 5D ... you deserve it. Then perhaps you could take advantage of that mad Weazel mode and do a photo essay for us. We may be able to help find out where you belong and how you can get there. If this suggestion doesn't sit well with you, ask a gorgeous woman, inside and out, to take you in her arms for however long it may take. And if you don't like that idea either, go get some vodka and grapefruit juice and make yourself a Salty Dog. x's and o's from The Prairie.

9:30 AM  
Blogger Robert said...

"GRRRR! I want my 5D!!!!"

1:42 PM  
Blogger Nathalie said...

Another of your mind blowing posts...

Look after yourself
Listen to yourself
Trust yourself
Be true to yourself

We love you Pod.

4:38 AM  
Blogger Sebastien said...

Now, how would I go about getting one of those stuffed weasels? He would look great right next to my computer. A sweet, sweet companion!!!

I hope you've been able to balance things a bit since the time of this post...

2:01 PM  

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